As I sit and try to write this post, I find myself at a loss for words. I so wish I had something elegant and Spirit-filled to write, but I don’t…
Instead, I rush the 3 big boys outside and then downstairs to watch a movie. I just need the house to be quiet. I rock Joshua and cherish the cuddles, for I don’t get enough time to hold this up-and-coming big boy. I lay in bed and cry over how much my heart hurts, and then I feel our littlest guy kick and punch from within. I am so blessed by these sons.
But right now, all I need is time to be sad. I give myself that time. It’s time to grieve what might have been, to shut out the world for a day, and to just survive.
This morning, in God’s perfect timing and provision, He led me to Psalm 28. Verse 7 says, “The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.” While I’m not leaping for joy today, I do most days. He is my strength and shield, today and always. I will put my trust in Him, for where else can we turn?
Once again, God has provided just what we need when we need it. From the countless prayers to the sweet notes and kind gestures, we are overwhelmed by the love the Father can lavish upon us through His Body, the church. Thank you for your obedience! You know who you are. 🙂